i've never been a fan of the slogan; embrace your "body".
i've been dealing with weight issues ever since i was younger. my cousins, my friends, my parents, my grandma, even my teachers have always talked shit about my body.
"all you gotta do is run,"
"wow your thighs are so big"
"kau jadi qm je la senang"
"kau lari bapak lembab"
imagine having a 7-year-old go thru that? having to realize that she's not worthy of love in this world. that all people look for nowadays is slim, skinny and under 50 kg. kalau lebih, sorry to say but you're apparently hated and looked down in this world. society's cruel and we cant change the fact that they're mean, they're heartless and they're fucking selfish. they dont give jackshit about what you feel, to them, you don't have feelings. to them, what they say is supposed to motivate you. well guess what society? you're not a motivational speaker.
how do you sleeping knowing you're the reason why someone's daughter, someone's son is crying themselves to sleep? how do you walk around in the world knowing you're the cause of someone's depression? HOW DO YOU EVEN SMILE KNOWING YOU'VE MADE CUTE, CHUBBY KIDS FEEL WORTHLESS BEING IN THEIR OWN SIZE?????
i went shopping with family last weekend, we'd been walking for hours and all my sisters already got their stuffs, pretty clothes, jeans and skirts and i havent gotten myself anything. apparently designers these days think that only skinny people wanna look pretty. and we, the ones who arent that slim, are meant to just buy ugly, cheap, oversized t-shirts. i restrained myself from crying that day. i couldnt look at pretty shirts and cry thinking how i wouldnt be able to fit into them. that i can never say to myself, "hey it's my size, lets buy this." no, we oversized people have to go thru the questioning looks on the salesperson whenever we ask to go try an outfit on.
when it does, its ugly. and when it doesnt fit, that's where it hurts most.
sure, people might say that we could go for a run or do aerobics everyday, eat healthily but what if that just doesnt work for some people? people like me are the type to enjoy life, eat whatever the fuck i want(with an appropriate portion); not live in a world where diet is a norm. but whenever you're eating, everyone just stares at with pity, wondering if they'd ever end up like me if they ate alot.
don't worry, you wont. even if you do, welcome to the club.
the club of the embarassment.
we're no ones in this world. we're not pretty enough, not skinny enough and not worthy of everything in this fucking world that APPARENTLY THE SOCIETY BUILT.
so here's to the club, here's to anyone who went to sleep crying because of their weight, who's going to depression because they were bulled by their weight, who's forced to look down whenever passing a group of people, who everyone looks down on during sports day, and to anyone whose ever been suicidal because of people's mouth.
you are loved, you are beautiful and you are appreciated. you're worthy of all the love in the world and one day, one person, one magnificient person will show you that.
here's also to the fucked up society, that's 99% the whole reason why overweight people hate themselves. :)
