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have u ever been embarassed by someone infront of acrowd? have u ever thought of leaving school just because of it?

i have.

but i couldnt quit school, although i wanted to.

the day i got called out dumb by my own teacher was the day my take on life changed.

i was humiliated, i was overwhelmed and i was sensitive frim the inz

i couldnt take critiscm well after that. i had this thought at the back of my head that everyone i knew was secretly calling me dumb behind their "critiscm".

and the worst part is, i cry everytime. i had a horrible mental breakdown last week. nothing qas going my way, i kept getting scolded by my teachers and everything my friends did annoyed me. i cried three days straight because of it.

so is this what that teacher wanted? for me to somw sense in life now? for having me cry all the time just by that one word she called me.

i want yall to remember what yall said to someone.

because u never know if u've mentally broken someone for the rest of their lives x

question,

one frequent question i usually get from others are,

"how are you so happy?"

i dont really know how to respond honestly. to say i live a luxurious life, i dont. to say, im the prettiest bitch on earth, im not. so sometimes i question myself, why am i so happy?

somehow i'd top the question off with mayb it's the favt im not committed to anything. i dont have a boyfriend im clinging onto, i take care of my relationship with everyone around me, and i dont wanna brag about this, but sometimes i feel like i get to be happy because i like to sedekah. mayb my happiness is a thank you from Allah for having such a big heart.

im not trying to brag really. im sorry if i sound obnoxious.

and mayb second of all, i have amazing friends. supportive, kind, funny, masuk air, friendly, crazy– im honestly so grateful to have them. its because of these crazy hoes, i got to live in a kind, fun environment and i know im gonna miss high school because of them. people at school too, are nice to me. gosh, i really dont know why i deserve this much kindness in life. thank you Allah.

anyways, if you ever need any tips on how to be happy, i'll list a few;

- be positive! this is so important, its the fundamental of being happy in the first place, positivity brings you so much in life so always put on a smile:)

-surround yourself with the right people! friends play a crucial part in life. they're the ones that bukld you to who you are right now. and having the perfect fit friends means everything,,

-dont date when ur in high school. boys are trash, guys. all they do is break your heart and cry. enjoy your high school life! make memories, go on adventures. you'll think back one day and ask yourself what did you ever do in high school that you couldn't cs of ur obsessive boyfriend:(

-be kind! kindness, is so important now. be kind to everyone and everyone will be kind to you✨

-keep your life private. idk abt you but im not the most popular girl around, people know me but they dont really know "me". and i guess thats good because when u keep your life low, you dont stress easily and you just mind your own business.


i guess that's it from me, hope this helped;) xxx