having a boy bestfriend

so for days I've been wondering where I could rant about my feelings to someone who won't judge me. other than God, there's this blog too.


so here I go.

so for your information, I have this one guy bestfriend whose name is anonymous since I'm too annoyed to even look at his name. We've been friends for years and I could consider him as a really good friend since I always rant about my problems to him. But somehow I don't know if I'm his bestfriend too. He might say it but he might also not mean it. The guy lives at asrama in Banting so we don't chat daily. Only during the weekends(that is if he comes home) and on public holidays. So a few days ago, he got a new phone(A DAMN IPHONE6S!!) and he created whatsapp. So we started chatting there. But somehow I have this feeling it was a mistake for him to make a whatsapp. Cause I can see whenever he blueticks me, and ignoring me. And it annoys me so much! I've been waiting for weeks for him to come home so that I can talk to him but he's acting like we always meet! He doesn't tegur me anymore, and the worst part is, he told me he's been talking to another girl. I got more pissed! Like, is she his new friend? If she is, then fuck him. Seriously. This is my first guy bestfriend and he's being such an asshole!

So last night I texted him randomly. I was giving him a hint for him to know that I was mad. I texted him "u r very clueless of a person's feelings." BUT BEING THE DUMB GUY WHO PUTS HIS BRAIN IN HIS ASS, he didn't even know what that meant and he later changed the topic. It was sooooook humiliating and annoying! But being the mature and good friend, I let it slide. And so the next day, he was going back to asrama. Normally, he would always tell me that he's leaving so we can bid each other goodbye but guess what? HE DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING. He was online many times yet he still didn't have the decency to text me. He's so annoying, and I'm just so pissed man. I'm so tired being the one who actually cares about our friendship. Does he not know how much this friendship means to me? Sighs.

I'm just gonna go now. I'm too frustrated.

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